City And Colour - The Girl

I wish I could do better by you,
Cause its what you deserve.
You sacrifice so much of your life,
In order for this to work.
While I'm off chasing my own dreams,
Sailing around the world,
Please know that I'm yours to keep,
My beautiful girl.

When you cry a piece of my heart dies,
Knowing that I may have been the cause,
If you were to leave,
fulfil someone else's dreams,
I think I might totally be lost.

You don't ask for no diamond rings,
No delicate string of pearls,
That's why I wrote this song to sing,
My beautiful girl.

I like to think you care.

Show me that you care. It doesn't seem like you do. Do you care? The slightest bit?

I love you.

Perfect morning, perfect company :)

This isn't right.

What the FUCK are you doing?

Being pushed away.

How am I meant to feel?

New.

Lets go for a drive. Take me somewhere I've never been before.

You don't.

You just don't care anymore.

Reality.

I drink coffee like it's water.
I brush my hair way too often.

I am self conscious all the fucking time.

I don't go to the beach.
I dislike most people.

I want to be strong.

I want you to want me.

I like boring things.

I want to be good enough for you.

I need more clothes.

I drink a can of coke a day.

I need to be skinny.

My head is a terrible place to be.

I drink my problems away.

I like my cat.

My bestfriends mean everything to me.

I smoke because I don't know what else to do.

I judge you.

You make me hate myself.

England?.

I'm going to London at the end of the year.

I am so excited!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Tom.

I have never felt this way about another human being in my entire life. It's a crazy feeling, a good feeling. I can safely say that not only do I love you but I am in love with you. You make me feel special, like I'm not like any other girl. You laugh at my insecurities and try your hardest to make me feel better. I love you for that. I want to thank you for the way you make me feel. I want to thank you for being there for me when I've needed you the most. I never seem to get the time to tell you these things because it's always irrelavent to our conversation. I really hope you're reading this. You are amazing and a great person. If someone asked me to change a single thing about you I honestly wouldn't know what to say. You are perfect... Well perfect for me at least. I love absolutely everything about you. I can't describe the feeling I get when you hold me, when you spoon me, when you touch me. I guess there isn't a word for everything. Yeah and sure we have had our ups and downs but it has only brought us closer together. You are my first love and you are my bestfriend.

Fuck everything.

I hate everything that has happened in the past few months. Everything is fucked up and different. A little something called change perhaps?.

Fuck drifting away from people you care about. Fuck fights over absolutely nothing. Fuck crying over stupid shit. Fuck people living in the past. Fuck people judging you for the mistakes you have made. Fuck people who tell you how to live your life. Fuck school. Fuck getting old. Fuck over-thinking shit. Fuck people who stop caring. Fuck people that let you down and dissapoint you. Fuck people for not keeping promises. But hey, most of all... Fuck you. FUCK YOU!

Op shopping.

I am going op shopping tomorrow.

I am excited.

Design.

I have drawn 997538753 dresses today.

I still can't design the perfect formal dress for this year.

Fuck this.

All Time Low - Weightless.

I'm so sick of watching while the minutes pass as I go nowhere.

This is my reaction to everything I fear cause I've been going crazy.

I don't want to waste another minute here.

Costello's.

Drunken nights with good company is always fun.

YEAH.

GOD IS DEAD.

LIFE IS A BITCH.

LOVE WILL TEAR US APART.

YOU ARE SO FUCKED UP.

Good morning hangover.

The morning after. Being hungover isn't the best feeling.

I think it's time to have a shower and a cup of coffee.

It's inevitable.

Nobody wants to admit this, but bad things will keep on happening. Maybe that’s because it’s all a chain, and a long time ago someone did the first bad thing, and that led someone else to do another bad thing, and so on. You know, like that game where you whisper a sentence into someones’ ear, and that person whispers it to someone else, and it all comes out wrong in the end. But then again, maybe bad things happen because it’s the only way we can keep remembering what good is supposed to look like.

Insecure and fucked up.

I know I'm not good enough.

But can you please stop reminding me?.

I.

I am not confident.

I know I am smart, but not in the ways that count.

I read people much better than books but I never have the words to explain my findings.

I'm only as funny as I feel.

And I don't think I'm pretty.

I sometimes walk with my head down.

My posture is terrible.

I think horrible things about people and I let my emotions get the best of me.

I'm really not as nice as I'd like to be.

Or as innocent as you'd think I am.

I am a perfectionist.

I am a contradiction to everything I want to stand for.

I am a big dreamer with little motivation.

I'm really no good at all, on my own.

But I am analytical with myself.

And I don't understand how anyone could ever be cocky

or proud when they are aware of all the disgusting things that they think or do, but no one knows.

We're all broken enough to be humble.

All.

Time is running out.
Give it all you got.
One day, you may not have it.
You will want it back.
So don't let go.
Give it all you got.

Wake up.

True story.

Drunk driving.

This is quite scary.

Smoking.

We all know how bad smoking is.

We know all about the diseases.

We've been advised to stop countless times.
Why are we still doing it?.

Driving test.

I have booked my next driving test.

Yes, I failed twice.
So I'm keeping the date a secret this time.

Just incase I fail again.

You're all way too judgemental.

Bang.

I really do feel like killing you.